Flashbacks

1.05am : Working on ICT's Report. I don't intend to sleep till i finish it.

So i decided to slack off abit by blogging about anything that i could think. [need to brush up my crapping skills =X]

Year 1 [freshie] :

So, this is the period where everyone started making friends and finding a place where they belong. Some fitted right in, while others took a longer time. I belong to the later catergory. I was pretty much in holiday mood at that point of time, reason? Spent 1 year after 'O' levels, working and studying for E-maths as i had to retook it. [gotten a F9 >:] Being friendly yet shy as i am, i could interact with anyone. I can still remember the first person that i spoke to during orientation, leia. She had a great personality since she was able to speak confidently just like that. [*Snaps finger] On my right sat JiaEn, haha, she was super quiet even though we tried to talk to her. It seems as though, she was hoping that everything would end in that instance. Those were the days, everyone quickly found their own clique and tried to stayed as one. Guess no one likes to be alone huh? That was for semester one.

Semester two came, things were different. The cliques were more obvious now and some splitted up to form a more comfortable zone. Come to think about it, the clique i am in is made up of several other cliques. Its hard to please everyone you know, its painful to know this fact too. Perhaps when i meet new people, i try to agree with everything they were on. Already halfway through semester two, some things were so obvious that i began questioning myself...[am i being selfless or are my surroundings being selfish?]

Looking back at Year 1, i believed i was naive then. I thought things would be simple, well thoughts are never meant to be facts. I felt a need for change, SBM club gave me the platform to look at my inner self once more. Secondary school friends often tell me that i know too many people, as i always have friends around the corner. Is it wrong knowing too many people? My knowledge of people was mininum still. Having been through a year with my classmates, their personalities shine out on you and made it obvious that they are who they are. Having been through camps, it strengthened my belief that people are a group of mystics who are interesting to study on. Different people have different personalities, some are pleasant, while some are just nasty.
Certain behaviours executed was just too obvious to be ignored. Afterall, it is a human's nature to be defendant of oneself and coming to a denial stage is all part of life. When you deny, please make sure you are not showing the opposite of what u deny.

Year 2 [young senior] :

Yes, year 2 has came. I was not looking forward to it, as like the way that i felt when Year 1 semester two came. I think everyone have gotten used to their own classes, so much so that the usual routine was always there. Have i not tried to remind that all of you are always there and are not forgotten? I believe i have, even now. Greeting one other, a small conversation with one other, having lunch with one other even though we may not speak, offering a smile in every way...etc...etc [Is that so hard to ask from people?]

I remember striking a phone conversation with someone on the topic of human's selfishness. Everyone is selfish in a way, everyone is protective of his/her interests. I am not excluded from this catergory. True that i have my selfishness, but to how much of an extend do you see me displaying it? Perhaps what i recieved, will be reflected back ten-fold.

Thinking back about all the memories that was created, I treasure those times when everyone had fun as a class. A class gathering[in class or outside], purely interactive with each other. We joke, laugh, and even embarass ourselves. What's wrong with this? we know each other, and there's nothing strange in the things we do.

Haha, enough talk about all this. Its time to get back to doing ICT. 1.50am.